Never believed: Skeptical

For quite a long time I was a skeptical about ghosts . I was skeptical about God as well after my brother passed away. I always debunked my experiencenes with spirits as they started coming more frequently in my life when I got older.

When I was about around 17 years old, my best friend Theresa had me watch Ghost Hunters for the first time. Again ,skeptical about ghosts I decided to watch it  to see what they called evidence of spirits.

I was quite amused at what they did find because I  couldn’t explain EVP’s . I was amused how you can be asking questions in a simple recorder and get a reply, that you couldn’t hear with your own ears at that time.

As I watched more of Ghost Hunters they have convinced me at that time there was a afterlife .

One show that had fully made me was when they found a image of a man in the thermal imaging camera. Most people think it is fake ,but I was a active firefighter at that time and there is NO explanation for that.

What a thermal imaging camera is , the camera measures heat, meaning fire. So firefighters use this for inside the  buildings for heat sources they cannot see, like electrical fires ect. 


The only heat source is around the shoulder. Otherwise, you can’t explain the other source, a image of a man.

So yes, this picture made me believe because you cannot explain how this man came to be. Ever since than I have come to accept my last experiencenes with the paranormal, which I guess is good. I really don’t know haha


Signs from my brother-afterlife

As I told most of you I had a older brother who passed away when I was only tweleve. Through all of this despair I had to put up with when my brother passed away, I know he has given me signs through the years.
My brother Matthew, I remember his first real sign. It was only a few weeks after he passed away. I, at the time was listening to my music and my cd player wasn’t working . Some cd’s would work , but no matter how much I cleaned my Cd or cd player for some reason they wouldn’t work. So I decided to go up into my sisters room which is the attic.

The attic used to be my brothers bedroom at one point and time. So when I went upstairs . I put the cd I wanted to listen to into the player . For some reason the cd wouldnt play, mind you my sisters cd player was not as old as mine.  So I tried cleaning the player and tried it again. Still the cd player displayed a error message. My cd’s were not old ,but it had just a few scratches on it.
I couldn’t get why every time I put in a cd in my sisters player it wouldn’t work. I remember I brought four cds upstairs with me. The last cd was Nirvana’s Nevermind . So the cd started right on point.

I tried to put on one of my favorite songs Lithium. It wouldn’t work and the cd went to the number one song Smells Like Teen Spirit.
I was confused and yet amused as to why and how it could just skip to the first song when I was in song number four. I than laughed and thought about my brother.
“Ok Matthew , I get it. I’ll let you listen to this” I played the whole song . The cd went onto the next song.

I suddenly felt I wasn’t alone in my sisters room and I looked over towards the stairs. There I had seen a shadow figure of my brother. His figure had the same curly hair as my brother ,but his figure was more like sitting by the stairs. Than his figure went down stairs.
I honestly didn’t know what to do at that time and I just wondered did I just see that? I quickly turned off the cd player and I ran downstairs.

To this day , eleven years later I find it quite amusing that maybe my brother wanted to bond with me even in the afterlife or just give me a sign he was still there .
He still does this day gives me signs he is here, but because I’am a empath I can tell when he is here. It is very comforting to know he is still here. I love him so much.