Signs from my brother-afterlife

As I told most of you I had a older brother who passed away when I was only tweleve. Through all of this despair I had to put up with when my brother passed away, I know he has given me signs through the years.
My brother Matthew, I remember his first real sign. It was only a few weeks after he passed away. I, at the time was listening to my music and my cd player wasn’t working . Some cd’s would work , but no matter how much I cleaned my Cd or cd player for some reason they wouldn’t work. So I decided to go up into my sisters room which is the attic.

The attic used to be my brothers bedroom at one point and time. So when I went upstairs . I put the cd I wanted to listen to into the player . For some reason the cd wouldnt play, mind you my sisters cd player was not as old as mine.  So I tried cleaning the player and tried it again. Still the cd player displayed a error message. My cd’s were not old ,but it had just a few scratches on it.
I couldn’t get why every time I put in a cd in my sisters player it wouldn’t work. I remember I brought four cds upstairs with me. The last cd was Nirvana’s Nevermind . So the cd started right on point.

I tried to put on one of my favorite songs Lithium. It wouldn’t work and the cd went to the number one song Smells Like Teen Spirit.
I was confused and yet amused as to why and how it could just skip to the first song when I was in song number four. I than laughed and thought about my brother.
“Ok Matthew , I get it. I’ll let you listen to this” I played the whole song . The cd went onto the next song.

I suddenly felt I wasn’t alone in my sisters room and I looked over towards the stairs. There I had seen a shadow figure of my brother. His figure had the same curly hair as my brother ,but his figure was more like sitting by the stairs. Than his figure went down stairs.
I honestly didn’t know what to do at that time and I just wondered did I just see that? I quickly turned off the cd player and I ran downstairs.

To this day , eleven years later I find it quite amusing that maybe my brother wanted to bond with me even in the afterlife or just give me a sign he was still there .
He still does this day gives me signs he is here, but because I’am a empath I can tell when he is here. It is very comforting to know he is still here. I love him so much.

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A calling

I guess I was meant to be called into this world because God didn’t let me die.  I have survived many things that no other person has survived, and I guess it came with this gift.  I never believed in spirits or ghost for the longest time or God for that matter .  After my oldest brother passed away  I guess this is where my gifts started to open up.

I was only tweleve years and I didn’t understand what was going on. That day is still so fresh in my mind and yet I could remember my anxeity and my knowing that this person wouldn’t be here anymore after that day.

I questioned should I stay to prevent such a thing. Who could I talk to and should I explain to everyone that we needed to stay home. I ignored my feelings and later that night my brother was gone. Through all the shock and confusion to what happend ,I laid down low and pushed what I felt into my grife .  I felt angered at myself and at God for giving me this . I would say I wish I never had this, I wish this was gone, so I stopped believeing in God.

My brother would come into my dreams frequently , but I remember my first dream where we both talked. My brother and I were sitting next to eachother. He had his long black curly hair pulled back into a pony tail and sitting there tuning his guitar like he always did.  He looked into my eyes and said”Caitlyn, on earth this is you’re  first life, Heaven is you’re second . Always, remember that .” Than he started playing his guitar again and the dream ended.

Many other dreams came after that when I was older. My brother would give me advice in current situations I was in. Mostly with boys and if he didn’t like them he would deffently tell me. I would start to take his advice because when it came down to it , he was right.  Also I guess he wias still trying to do his big brother duties That’s when I started to believe I had a gift.

Obviously this was recently that I have come to and accepted what I do have. I can sense the spirits . I have a friend that is a medium. I came to her first  and talked about what I have. She came up that iam a Empath.

I had to look up what exactly what a Empath was. I did reasearch on Google and found a websites for mediums, empaths. The empath boards has exactly what I had . The FEELINGS of spirits, their emotional and physical feelings. I could “see” spirits, flashes is what they look like . They sometimes can foucus their feelings into me so I guess I could speak for them.
My sense of smell is heightend. Meaning, I could smell a perfume  or a cigar that maybe that spirit has used in their last life.

So I accepted that God has given me this gift for one reason it another.  I recently told ny mother and she is accepting it . She dies ask me questions which is understandable considering my brother.

Sometimes, I think God gives these type of gifts to people because that is what he wants us to do. He wants to help others grife , or spirits relay messages into loved ones.  I guess iam special that way. I guess maybe it is my calling.